Tuesday, August 31, 2010

No purpose, and no drive. In the end we're all alive.

I want to hurt something, or someone. I have so much anger in me. I'm angry.
Angry at the fact that whenever I'm happy, my happiness doesn't last. Every time something good happens to me, it won't last. Or it'll be snatched away from me. I'm just boiling with rage right now, why the fuck can't life be simple? I wish I could erase the past, I'm angry. At myself. At you. At everyone. I wish I could let all this anger out, wish I could just blurt everything. I hate suppressing anger, hate that so much anger has built up inside me I can just be set off in a blink of an eye. Hate that I can't be who I want to be because the past still haunts me, hate that whenever I feel like I'm doing good, like I'm progressing, I get angry because a voice in my head tells me that I'm not a good person and I never will be. Then images of the past just flashes through my mind reminding me of who I was, what I've done and I go back to square one. I hate carrying secrets around. I hate that I get annoyed, irritated and pissed off at the pettiest of things. I hate that I always screw things up. I'm living for nothing but I don't wanna die. I don't wanna die for nothing. I hate the fact that I'm like a mirror. I hate the fucking fact that it all sinks in when I'm alone. I'm angry because every time I know something, someone will make me happy, I cringe and refrain myself because I know that my happiness would be snatched away from me like always. I hate that I hate too much. But most of all, I hate the fact, that I've lost myself.

God, if you're mission was to make me one unhappy little fuck. Your mission is accomplished.

Come over to the darkside;

They say the devil's water, it ain't so sweet. You don't have to drink right now, but you can dip your feet every once in a little while.

Monday, August 30, 2010

Peekabo! It's your favourite caveman, beetches!

Happy Birthday, Malaysia!
So as you all know, it's Malaysia's 53rd birthday today and guess who knows and tweeted about it too? Wait for it.. Wait for it....
*drum rolls!*
KIMORA LEE SIMMONS!
I'll show you a screen shot I took.


I think it's pretty awesome that even someone who isn't staying in Malaysia knows the date of our independence day. Shame on the rest who call themselves Malaysians. Moving on.. Naim (caveman) did a BBQ at his place in Subang and we Ohanas didn't hesitate to melantak all those yummy food! Nothing much la actually, went over, ate, chill, talked, etc etc.




BYE!

Thursday, August 26, 2010

MUST READ!

I found something on the net that really changed the way I look at things and also opened my eyes. Hope it will to you guys too.. Read it!

2009-12-20 Update: Be careful not to become too jaded or polarized from reading this.

It’s easy to forget how heartless most people are when you’re not around them.

At the beginning of the semester, my speech teacher asked all the students what their majors were, and what they were going to do with their lives. What did he get?

Boring replies.

No conviction. No one was committed to anything they said. There were a lot of “I don’t know”s. Those are bad, but even worse are the people who have been brave enough to “choose” a path… but they’ve chosen one that inspires no confidence. You know these people. Often, they’ll even say what they really want to do with exciting enthusiasm, but then in the same sentence they’ll say how unrealistic it is. These people think they’re really smart. They think they’re being “grounded” and “down to earth” by choosing a “reasonable” career. No one will tell them anything different.

But really, what are they?

Heartless people.

They’ve sold out. They’re not even twenty, and they’ve already committed themselves to doing what they hate for life. And that’s reasonable? We’re telling the children of the world that selling out is reasonable?

Shame on us.

You can’t have a heart if you’ve already sold yourself out. Sure, you can have compassion, kindness, love, friendship, bravery. But you’ll just have a shadow heart. A sliver of these things. A crumb, when you should have a whole pie.

The way to bring others back to their hearts is not to comfort or support or empathize. It’s not to stick by them. It’s not to bring yourself down to their level.

The way to help others is to follow your heart to the end. When you find someone like this, it’s like meeting Jesus. You’re meeting someone so brilliant and spirited that his heart transfers to you. It’s like a wildfire meeting a blighted forest. His fire becomes your fire.

So how do you overcome heartlessness? Phase heartless friends out of your life, and bring heartfelt friends into your life. That means: get away from negative people.

Once you’ve built up a network of positivity, go back to those negative friends. You’ll find they aren’t so negative after all. Their completely positive now. Were you mistaken?

No, you made them positive. Whenever you embrace your heart, others do the same. When you deny your heart with lies, excuses, and limiting beliefs, others do the same. It doesn’t matter if you’re a hermit. You still hold other people back when you hold yourself back. What you do to my brothers, you do to me.

This is the perfect manifestation of chaos theory and the ripple effect, because it means that we’re all pretty much the same. You have an ethical duty to do the work that does the most good for yourself and others, because if you don’t, you’re bringing down humanity. This isn’t something that can or should ever be mandated or legislated, because no one but you can find your heart. I can push you in the right direction, but only you can drink the water.

You have quite a responsibility. Every minute you waste working for more fake money, you take away from humanity. You think you’re being good and staying out of trouble, but you’re actually being evil.

How good would it be if I decided to stop taking pictures and stop sharing these articles, to instead play the violin or open a shop selling widgets? It wouldn’t be good at all, because that isn’t where my heart is. I’d be doing something I enjoy far less than this, so I’d contribute far less to the lives of others. If I picked a safe path like becoming a computer-science teacher or a government-funded librarian, I’d actually be doing something completely evil. That’s where heartlessness comes from.

One of the greatest ways to have a heart is to choose your career. Your career is what you do that makes money. It is not what you do to make money; it’s what you do that also incidentally happens to make money. Also: it is not what you do, but how you do it. My photography and writing is always focused on the growth and inspiration of others. If I found that I could better inspire others by composing music or giving speeches or returning to pencil sketches, I’d switch in a heartbeat. But I don’t, because my talent + heart makes photography and writing the most effective mediums for me right now.

You can’t choose a career in advance. You have to do it and then see if you like it. This is costly and takes years. To speed up the process, you must choose what you really like now, as that’s the closest thing to your mission that you currently know.

Ask yourself: “What would I do if I had all the money and possessions I need to live? What would I do if I’d found my mission? What would I do if I’d created my religion? What would I do if I had a loving wife and family? What would I do if I’d overcame limiting beliefs and made peace with the world?”

What would I do? I’d write this.

My gut reaction is that I should make my life perfect first, and then write this. Once I eliminate my problems, I’ll have peace.

This is putting the cart before the horse. Problems give you peace. ‘Unhappiness’ gives you a mission, because it’s actually happiness in disguise, telling you what you need to be doing. It’s that little voice (your conscience) that watches out for you. You have to follow your intellect (the voice) instead of your gut (not the voice). You have to be open to hear him. You have to listen real close. God’s not going to help you if you refuse to help yourself. Be thankful for the voice, because no other species has it. We’re special. We have a voice.

The nature of heartlessness

If Yoda from Star Wars has taught us anything, it is that the dark side is much more tempting than the side of light, because it makes progress much more quickly. Siths seem to have much more power than Jedi, because they blaze ahead while Jedi make slow advances. Siths rise to greatness in days instead of years. Strangely enough, however:

The dark side is powerless.

Heartlessness is powerlessness.

Good always triumphs over evil, because evil is a dependent system, whereas good is an independent system. Evil is the derivative of good. You cannot have a pure-evil world; evil can only co-exist with good. If you have evil, you must have good. But you can have good without evil. The phrase necessary evil is the dark side’s Trojan horse. Evil is never necessary.

You can’t have shoplifters without shoppers.

You can’t have thieves without customers.

You can’t have poison without medicine.

You can’t have corruption without honesty.

You can’t have hate without love.

You can’t have evil without good.

You can’t have heartlessness without heart.

You can have heart without heartlessness.

If everyone is wholly corrupt, how can anyone have anyone to take advantage of? You can’t have a society of leeches. Someone has to contribute something, or else there is nothing to leech.

Think of evil as cancer cells, and good as healthy cells. Cancer cells leech; healthy cells contribute. Cancer cells are incredibly powerful because they can reproduce and continue growing indefinitely. They expand exponentially. Cancer represents evil and heartlessness. Healthy cells, which represent light and heart, have no such privileges. But, there is a paradoxical fail-safe that protects the light side.

As cancer gets more and more powerful, it actually ends up committing suicide. Cancer is heartless, but it relies on something heartfelt (the body) to continue living. Once it becomes unstoppably powerful, it overwhelms its host. Both die. It’s like using Explosion in a Pokémon battle.

In a bad world, terminal cancer victims would be completely engulfed by the disease, becoming walking cancer zombies that roam the Earth spreading the disease to millions of others. They’d also be green and glow like Frankenstein. Evil would triumph.

In our world, evil can never triumph.

The best possible outcome for the dark side is the destruction of both good and evil, leaving nothingness. Evil can never win. If you’re evil, the best you can hope for is a stalemate with good, resulting in the death of you both.

The best possible outcome for the light side is peace on Earth with unprecedented abundance, freedom, and growth for all of humanity. Evil is completely removed, but not in it’s destruction, so much as it’s conversion to good. The evil men lay down their swords, stop murdering each other, and commit themselves to empowering rather than imprisoning their countrymen. We and the dead spirits forgive their transgressions, because there’s nothing else that should be done. There is no love in perpetual Hellfire.

Evil cannot be isolated. Pure evil does not exist; it is always tempered by good, be it 50% or .001%. Pure good does exist, alone and 100% independent of evil.

Which side will you choose?

If you pick heartlessness (evil), you’ve actually already given up on life, because the best you can hope for is a stalemate. But if you follow your heart (good), the sky is limitless.

How could this be any simpler?

When you give up your freedom to secure your safety, you’ve chosen evil. When you choose a safe, boring life over a risky, adventurous life, you’ve chosen evil. When you choose accounting over lion-taming, you’ve chosen evil.

Evil exists in everything you fear, everything that leads you into limits, shyness, and seclusion, away from your God-given power.

If you become heartless, you’ll make fast progress. . . toward death.

Your life has no meaning. It would have meaning if it was defined in terms of good, but by defining yourself in terms of evil you’ve obfuscated your heart into a cryptogram that serves no one.

Just because evil cannot triumph does not mean that you should not be concerned. The best endgame for evil is the destruction of good, and that is still really really bad. We want to keep good around.

Knowing that heartlessness depends on the heart gives you unstoppable power on the side of light. You may think power is evil, but it’s completely necessary. Anything that’s necessary is good, not evil. Power is great. It allows you to uphold goodness.

Just think: any heartless person, no matter how far gone, can be saved, because there is a sliver of good in him which can never be destroyed. To destroy that sliver is to destroy him.

If your evil is too strong, it might kill you to return to good. Or at least, critically injure you. But that’s much better than continuing in evilness. If you’re evil, you’re drowning alive.

If you cause a really heartless person to die, not through force but by his free return to heartfeltness, you’ve done something great. Although I’d prefer him to live, you’ve proven that impossible, and so his fate was best.

The way to combat evil is not to fight fire with fire, or murder with murder. In Gandhi’s words, “an eye for an eye makes the whole world blind.” When you fight evil with evil, you become evil. Don’t cooperate with nor support evil.

A good example of disguised evil is pre-emptive and retributive punishment. You cannot rightly punish a man for his plans or his genes or his thoughts. “Hate crimes” and “thought crimes” cannot exist, because hate is irrelevant to a crime. So is “affirmative” action. Abortion is also pre-emptive punishment, because it’s meant to save a child from the horrors he’ll face in the world, being unwanted and unloved and all. All these things are touted by the evil-doers as “good,” but they are squarely in the category of heartless evil.

Don’t support evil.

Your thoughts are important, but for the purpose of justice, they’re only important after you’ve committed a criminal act. Then, in an ideal legal system, a jury of your peers reviews the evidence and decides unanimously if you (a) are guilty; (b) should be punished. You can only be punished if you’re guilty, but not all guilty people should be punished. If you accidentally kill someone, it’s a lot different then purposefully killing someone. The difference can be between no punishment and life in prison (not death, because death stifles your opportunities for personal growth). If you dive in the water to save a drowning child, it doesn’t matter how many “no swimming” signs are around.

Governments are not inherently evil. Our governments are evil. American was not evil, but it has become evil by would-be do-gooders standing idle while evil-doers like Abraham Lincoln, the income tax, and the Federal Reserve system rose to power.

Irresponsible debt is evil. If you mortgage your heart, you can’t expect anything but heartlessness. Most debt is evil, because most debt is irresponsible. Live beneath your means always, buy less than you need, contribute more than you take. Possessions and thoughts don’t matter; actions matter. Don’t put up with people who push you toward debt.

Thwarting the Death-Worshipers

The heartless have a plan right now. They want the best endgame for evil. The only path to that is the extinction of the human race (after a lot of pain and suffering, of course). The population of the Earth must become 0. Then, both good and evil will be gone, permanently. The evil-lovers worship death.

If you’re “neutral,” you’re evil. There’s good and evil, and neutral people are evil because they let evil people reign without matching evil with good. You have to choose between good and evil. This isn’t something you can wuss out on.

“The world is evil” syndrome

The main counter-argument of the dark side is this: nature, including the nature of man, is naturally uncaring and evil. Whenever we do something good, like sharing kindness or love, we’re doing it for ourselves. It’s selfish, because the end result is the betterment of ourselves. The betterment of others is merely a secondary result, making every person evil.

The problem with this theory is it objectively defines the self vs. the other, when such an objective declaration does not exist. When you redefine the world in terms of subjective reality, which is the only congruent system, you’ll find that other people are just projections of you and they represent the struggles and dreams of yourself. When you’re sharing your art or love or generosity with others, you’re being “selfishly evil,” insofaras that you are benefiting yourself. If the world was objective, that would be evil. But it isn’t, so love and compassion are always good and on the side of light, because you are other people, other people are you, you single-handedly represent all of humanity, and every other person on this planet is the exact same person as you.

Suicide is murder and must be illegal. Killing yourself is the same as killing someone else.

The environmentalism ploy

If you’ve read the Georgia Guidestones, the ten commandments of the death-worshipers, the first item on the list is “keep the human population below 500 million.” The way to do that is to kill 93 out of every 100 people. It’s going to take a lot of wars, nuclear attacks, famines, sterilization, abortions, and plagues to do that, and you can bet the illuminati are plotting right now.

If you support population reduction, let me tell you the truth: population reduction starts with you. Show your commitment to the 500 million milestone by taking the lives of yourself and your family right now. I’ll wait here.

Are you done yet? Very good.

Humanity is the calm within the storm. Humanity is the beacon of light that shines through all the smoke, fog, and mirrors that plague the lower forms of life. Humanity triumphs over adversity and heartlessness eternally, not by extinguishing the heartless but by converting them to the side of light and making them our strongest allies.

We’re strong together. It doesn’t matter if we have twenty-billion people; the life of each person is inherently valuable and sacred regardless. This is the path of heart.

Look at dogs for example. Before we came along, that had no mission. The race of the dog was a ship with no rudder, no engine, and no captain. But now, with man as the captain, dogs have love, abundance, and a mission like no other. By partnering with us, they’ve unlocked their true potential. It isn’t all sunshine and roses, because we’re killing dogs all the time, just as we’re killing people. Support the good things while denouncing the killing. Killing isn’t necessary; enough people die on their own.

Humanity is the most perfect and natural form of life on Earth. Don’t let anyone tell you this isn’t our planet. The planet is doing great, life is more diverse than ever, there is no global warming besides natural cycles of the sun, and pollution is minimal due to technological advances. The volcanoes of the Earth put out dozens of times more pollution than all of our actions combined. This is a secure, versatile planet; it can easily handle us. Mother Earth is not a fragile butterfly; she’s a solid rock with a will like no other.

Following your heart, day to day

If you’ve read everything I’ve written and am eagerly looking forward to my next articles, you’re one of a few. You’re reading a lot of other personal development books and blogs now, taking in all the information you can.

Yet you’re doing nothing.

You’re scared to do anything.

It’s much safer to read than to act.

It’s even safer to write than to act.

Right now, I’m just writing. You could say I’m being evil, because I’m encouraging other people to do nothing but read my writing, even if I say I want them to get out and see the world.

There is no personal development in sleeping, or reading, or even writing. Only in action.

You can read all you want, but you have to apply what you’re reading. If you’re merely amassing a list of quotes or a collection of books, you’re doing worse than nothing, because you’ve convinced yourself you’re making progress where really you’re making none. You have no heart.

When you forfeit your power to others, you give up your heart. You say that other people can make better use of your heart than you can. You’re afraid to wield power or personal responsibility, so the best you can is to let others guide you because they must be smarter.

The thing is, you can’t live with two hearts or zero hearts. You can only live with one heart. If we take that heart away or transplant a second heart next to it, it will kill you. Completely. When you become heartless, you’ve given your heart to someone else, and that person will die too because he can’t support two hearts. Heartlessness is the most pure form of evil, because it results in the death of everything.

It isn’t natural to live in fear. Courage is the natural state of man, but we’ve drifted away from it. When you’ve drifted off the path, the only thing to do is to get back on the path. Return to courage. Do something real.

Conclusion

Some people will say I’m naïve and idealistic for defining good and evil so concretely, or for believing in the goodness of man.

To them I say: :silly:
If you want something to pick on, I also believe in true love, real money, joblessness, purposeful happiness, and the sanctity of human life.

Always remember that the people who push atheism or Christianity on you the hardest are the ones plagued with painful doubt themselves. When people become highly angered, they’re never angry at you. They’re angry at themselves for not following their heart. Anger means that you’re either jealous of someone else being true, or unhappy that someone else is imitating you by being heartless.

Whenever I’m angry at other people, I’m actually angry at myself, because other people are me and I am other people. We’re the collective heart. It’s like the Borg, but ten times better. We’re working to consecrate the heart rather than extinguish it.

Live in the light.



Tuesday, August 24, 2010

This is me

To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.
Find a cure for my life
Put a price on my soul
Oh you think I´m in control
Oh you think it´s all for fun
Find a cure for my life
Build a wall
Build a fortress around my heart
Is this fun for you?
I see signs now all the time
That you're not dead, you're sleeping
I believe in anything
That brings you back home to me

My back begins to tingle

These are some songs that I highly recommend for everybody. My personal top 10.
  1. Hometown-Adele
  2. Disco Pogo-Frauenarzt and Manny Matk
  3. Tired and Uninspired-My American Heart
  4. Breathe-Telepopmusik
  5. How To Touch A Girl-Jojo
  6. Anyone Else But You-The Moldy Peaches
  7. After Tonight-Justin Nozuka
  8. Yasmin The Light-Explosions In The Sky
  9. Seasons Of Love-Shiny Toy Guns
  10. Come Together-The Beatles


Enjoy(!)

Some kick arse pictahs!


I want a shower liddis!

Beautiful, eh?


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!


That's abowrit!

So fresh and so clean clean!

Hello, sexy tushes! I stayed home in stead of going to school today, I know, sad. I did nothing productive at all. Just lazed around the house, watched telly, BBM-ed, and some other things that aren't on the productive things list. So since my right foot was sprained when I was trying to do a ballerina spinning move on Monday in school, I had to go to the clinic today to see what's actually the problem. Honestly, if it wasn't for my gorgeous bestie, Sanne The Squirrel, I wouldn't have gone to the clinic. She's like my second mother, she takes care of me. Which is one of the many reasons why I love her! Anyway, moving on, I went to the clinic and the doctor said it's nothing major so I'm pretty happy. I'm looking forward to attend school tomorrow because I miss my Ohanas terribly also because Minyan got me Greentea Mooncake! She's such a doll, the most adorable thing on earth I tell you! Well, I guess that pretty much sums up my day.
I'm gonna post up some pictures for you guys to see. Personally, I think they're pretty awesome!









Til then,
your one and only,
ATL

Monday, August 23, 2010

23.08.10

School.
Let's see what happened today, shall we?
  • Had chocolate chip cookies with milk for breakfast
  • Went to school
  • Got lotsa shayang-ing for my Ohanas
  • Talked about the secret operation with Sanny The Squirrel
  • Tried to do a stoopid ballet rina movie but failed miserably
  • My right foot is sprained
  • No school tomorrow!
  • I don't have to sit for an excruciating three periods of Accounts with the Muyiah Monsterrr!
  • I saw Mr. Lee picked his nose for the THIRD time today.





Oh yes, I do ;)

Just the way you are

He's so beautiful, and I tell him everyday. :)

Friday, August 20, 2010

God, please give me a sign.


This is not funny anymore, it's freaky and creepy. I don't want to wake up every time jumping out of bed just to check the time so I don't have to sleep anymore. Yes, at first it was kind of a confident booster to me but now it has gotten way out of hand. I want it to stop please, God. These dreams, these dreams, what are they? A sign? Are you trying to tell me something? Or are you just punishing me for not doing my five daily prayers and not being a good Muslim? O God, please give me a sign. Something.. Anything. Three nights, in a row. This is killing me.







"O Allah, place light in my heart, light in my tongue, light in my hearing, light in my sight, light behind me, light in front of me, light on my right, light on my left, light above me and light below me; place light in my sinew in my flesh, in my blood, in my hair, in my skin, place light in my soul and make light abundant for me; make me light and grant me light. Amin."



















Your servant,
Amalina Thaqifah Lavocah

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Green in ego (HAHAHAHAH)

The force is always with me because....
I AM THE FORCE, bitchez!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Yee Sue Anne



Yee Sue Anne.
Since you wrote a lot about me in your blog, I shall write for chu! I don't know where to start la.. Hmm...
I love you because...
You're so easy to love
You're the only one I can never get mad at no matter what
You talk with this daaamn stoopid indian accent in the midst of a joke you're telling
You're so loud, you put the AK47 to shame
You laugh like a car engine that's tersekat-sekat
You're such a clutz
You make me smile :D
You smell like milk
Your hair so fluffy I could die (HAHA, Angus :p)
You slap me with your hair without you knowing
You make me comfortable around you
You're nice to cuddle with
You're my source of inspiration
You motivate everyone with your love & kindness
You're so beautiful but you don't even know it
Your heart is the purest thing I've ever known, you're so beautiful inside, too
You come from JB (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA)
Your nose is the cutest thing on your face
You eat like the whole world is going to run out of food supply tomorrow
You wear heels that are so high if I lempar at anjing mati terus
You understand me
You're so patient with me
You like to stare at me cause I'm so gorgeous
You put up with my annoying-ness
You love every part of me :D :3
You have soft skin
You're the most perfect person I've ever met
You taught me how to be a friend
You taught me what it's like to love unconditionally
You make me want to be a better person
You still love me despite of the things I've done in the past
and last but not least......














YOU TRY TO ACT ALL BAD ASS ALL THE TIME WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT M.O.S IS.. YOU THINK YOU'RE SO BAD ASS CAUSE YOU THINK IT'S SOMETHING OWNED BY THE GOVERNMENT HAHAHA.






Sue Anne, Sue Anne.. What would I do without you?








Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Fasting Month!

‎"Every human being hath two inclinations-one prompting him to do good & impelling him thereto,& the other prompting him to eveil & thereto impelling him;but divine assistance is nigh & he who asketh the help of God in contending with the evil promptings of his own heart obtaineth it."-Prophet Muhammad(peace be upon him)

Day one of fasting month seems to be going well for me. Hope it is for the rest of the Muslims out there. I have vowed to myself that throughout the entire month, I will strive to bring myself closer to the Almighty Allah. I haven't been a good Muslim, I must admit. I have done a lot of things in my past that I am now proud of. So I'm going to take this time to redeem myself in my creator's eyes. Repent, reflect, repent, reflect. Submission will not stop at the end of the month for me, but it will continue for as human beings, we continually have to pray for forgiveness, fine inner peace and also constantly improve ourselves. I believe in constant and never ending change.
Happy Ramadhan, again, to all the Muslims out there!

Penn Dayton Badgely











oh.my.god!
WHY ARE YOU SO GOOD LOOKING?!?!






Marry
me, please? :D


Nathashah Julen.

THANK YOU! (:

Monday, August 9, 2010

Seasons of Love.

"The saddest people I've ever met in life are the ones who don't care deeply about anything at all."-Dear John.

"Sometimes you have to be apart from the people you love, but that doesn't make you love them any less. Sometimes it makes you love them more. "-The Last Song.

"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful."-A walk to remember.

"So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day."-The Notebook.

Q
uotes sound familiar? It's all from Nicholas Sparks' movies. Nicholas Sparks' never fails to make me cry in his movies, I don't know how he does it, really. If I could choose anyone to write my love story, it would be him, hands down. He tells everything in details, y'know? Which makes the movie even more surreal than it already is, but yet, we all want a love story like one of the movies above. Mash every love stories above and you got yourself a fairtytale, no? As for me, if I could choose my love life to be based on one of the above, it would without a doubt be, A walk to remember. Why? Because of Dean's undying love for Jamie, because in the movie, it's all about Dean and Jamie, just talking about what they want to be. Or how they want their future to be like. Not only do they have a very strong connection, they also have an extraordinary bond with their souls. Each making one want to strive to be a better person, to change for the better. I think that's what genuine love do to you, it makes you happy, beautiful. And also want to be a better person because when you're with your other half, you just feel a never ending journey of inspiration to change for the better, always. I hope, one day I will find a love like this-genuine and pure. And I will also pray for everyone else to feel this kind of love, one that awakens your soul. Because in the end of the day, everyone deserves to be loved and also, to give love. Without love, we are nothing.

Til then,
Love is what makes the world go round.
Amalina Lavocah.

Funky Neon Ball(!)

Hello! Sorry for the lack of updates! I'm going to try to update as much as I can from now on, pinky promise! Well, a lot has been happening lately, mainly it's because I'm on holidays now. One of the many things I did during this short holiday was attending a charity ball! My bestfriend, Sanne Ms. Buncit persuaded me to go but I have to admit, it was worth the persuasion. The ball was definitely a memorable one. Performances by Caprice, L.O.V.E, Nik Irfan & a few others that I don't remember. That night was all about my bestfriend actually, she looked breath takingly beautiful with that Pochahuntas (is that how you spell it?) dress that she was wearing & her five freaking inch heels! Did I mention Caprice called her cute, sang to her along with Nik Irfan & then escorted her down the stage & a reporter said she's beautiful, thought she was a model (duh, who wouldn't think that?) & asked for her cellphone number so that he could call her the next time he wants to do a photoshoot? Did I mention that? Yes, I did suckaa! All in all, I'm really really, genuinely happy for her. She deserved every attention she had that night.

I lalalove you, Sanne Ms. Buncit <3

Here are some pictures by the way. Wait, actually, pictures are at Sanne's blog & there's a lot so.. Rain check, yeah?

Til then,
astalavista, macha!