Half heartedly.

Everything seems so clear now, it's actually him that she wants. She feel at ease when she's with him, maybe it's just her, but when she looks at him, she see someone who can make a difference, someone who's not afraid to be geeky. He makes her want to be all stupid & lame when she's with him. Even when her hair is all frizzy, he still manage to bring out the best in her. Say it's corny, but whenever she think about you she gets butterflies in her stomach. To say she hates this feeling, it would be a lie. But, she can't have him, or maybe, she chose not to. She knows, in the end, she'll end up hurting him. God is great, He probably has better plans for the both of them. It's high time that she lets go of him, I've been setting up traps & he's been the victim, she's a person who has so much to give, but doesn't know how to. He just take & take whatever she have to offer, regardless whether it's the affection & tender love or the tantrums that she's throwing. It's okay, there's noone else I'd rather be with but you, he says. She wants to be with him, but she doesn't really show. Oh, he doesn't know how she longs for his arms to be around her & for her head to be buried in his chest. He doesn't know. He will never know. For she knows what she is capable of, & hurting this fragile boy was never her intention, but she continues doing so. Now she's confused, confused about everything, so he becomes the victim. She's pulling him back in everytime he's back on his feet again. It's love she claims. But deep deep down in her sinned soul, she's still trying to figure out whether it's love, the thrill of chasing, or just a game. The poor boy just takes everything that she throws at her, without ever complaining. There's only one thing in his list, & that's loving the heartless girl.


Just so you guys now, this was just typed down spontaneously. It's not something that actually happened, please take note.

Cheers!