Welcoming another chapter in our lives

Woah! Time flies when you're having fun, huh? That's exactly what happened in 2010 for me. It's an amazing, amazing year. Personally, I feel like I've become a better person compared to who I was before, also, I've met different people and there are a few people whom I've met that I will forever hold close to my heart. These two people taught me how to open myself up and let me know that it's okay to let people inside my heart. I've learnt to trust, even if not fully, at least I have learnt to trust and I'm just going to take it one step at a time. Baby steps!

Besides that, I've grown and learnt a lot of things that only time can teach me. I guess in a way, time makes you a better and wiser person but only if you choose to be. Know? It's like the saying, God can't help you if you won't help yourself. For some of you, 2010 may not have been a good year but keep in mind that every experience makes you a wiser person if you learn from it. Whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, hey? In 2010, I hit rock bottom and pushed myself back to the top. I promised myself that I will not rest until I've reached success. Don't get me wrong, I'm very much content with everything that I possess right now but the way I see it.. There's nothing wrong with being thankful with what you have but striving for more than what I can have.

As for family, I've grew closer to each and everyone of them, seeing their flaws and loving them more despite their flaws. I guess that's why we love them, the fact that they can push our buttons yet, we still love them with all our hearts. My family is whacky, tacky and corny but you know what, they're my family and I love them to bits and pieces. Everything in this world comes and goes but no matter what happens, family will always be there.

To me, the end of every year is just an end to a chapter in my life and the beginning to a new one. Although 2010 has been such a great year for me, I have a feeling that 2011 will be double the awesome-ness, double the terrificalty, and double the delightfulness! In 2011 I will be sitting for SPM, and in 2011 my brother will embark on an amazing journey to Switzerland to start a new life and I wish him all the best. I know and hope that he will come back a new person, a better one. So to everyone, I would just like to wish you in advance, a Happy Happy New Year, may 2011 be an awesome year for all of us. Let us welcome 2011 with open arms and embrace this thing we call life.

Live everyday like it's your last because when you do, embarassment, shame and everything else will just fall to the floor. There is nothing else that you can fear because the thought of death in your mind defeats all.

Cheers!

Oh and by the end of 2011, be sure to keep your eyes open because there's going to be an upcoming star who goes by the name AMALINA THAQIFAH LAVOCAH ;)

Alright, til then, people!

It's not how many years you have to live but how much life you have in those years that you live!

College. Do we go to college because we want to or because it seems to be the normal thing to do after high school? Most of us go to college because our friends go to college. We go to college because it's a normal thing to do. But why do we go to college? To get a job? To become successful? What? The reason why I am writing this post is because these past few days I have been reflecting on my life, what I want to do and all sorts. Then it just hits me, why should I mug for two years or so when at the end of the day, all I get a is a piece of printed paper to determine my qualification.

Truth be told, I don't even know what I want to do with my life but one thing is for certain.. At the end of the day, I don't want to be telling only one story. I honestly think that the only reason why people go to college is because they don't know what they want to do and sure there are some people who go to college because they know what they want to do too but after they graduate they get a job, become successful and they tend to stay in their comfort zone. For example, a Lawyer who's successful only becomes a Lawyer because he doesn't want to risk his money and etc by doing other things when he knows that what he's doing now is giving him benefit. Do you follow me? At first, I had it all worked out, I wanted to be a Lawyer but now.. I don't want to do just one thing. I want to take risks, learn about many things, reinvent myself, I want to keep evolving. I want to become a Lawyer, then a TV Presenter, then a Journalist, I want to travel all around the world. I want my life to be based on chapters, like a story book. Because from my point of view, everyone is just living their life with one story to tell and I don't want that.

To people who's worried about not knowing what they want to do after higschool, don't fret, take time off and figure out what you love. Heck, I don't even know what I want to do once I'm out of highschool but most probably, I'm going to take a year off, get a job, gain as many experiences that money can't buy and just travel around the world. All I know is that when I become successful, I don't want to be just another person who makes money from a lousy job that I don't even like. To me, success means doing something you're passionate about, something you love. Also, success is to give back, to be apart of something bigger than you. But most importantly, success is love from our family and our devotion to the Almighty. So yes, sue me for maybe not wanting to go to college, or wanting to take a year off first. All I know is that, I would just most probably go to college after I figure out what I want to do with my life because let's be honest, I want to make my mom and dad proud and the only way to do that is by having at least a degree. I don't see the point in having a masters or whatsoever. For me, the most important thing is experience.

I love life, but it's sad that not many people do, and I'm guessing they don't because whenever they try to fly away from the mediocre thought of what "normality" deems to be these days, they get tormented. Which is a pity really. I think I'm going out of the topic now but whatever. Basically what I'm trying to say is, don't just go through life doing what people want you to do or what you think you want to do. To what you love and you won't feel like you've worked a day.

ATL

This is for SUE ANNE

Katy Perry Song Translations by GloZell

I think she might've had lunch with Lucifer HAHAHAHAHAAH

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SUCCESS

That's all I aim for, nothing less.

To the ones I love, hold on just a lil' bit longer. It's going to be a beautiful journey.

To those who has doubted me well, I'll just indulge myself in the pleasure of looking at your faces when I prove ALL of you wrong. :)

Still fly.

Life is a beautiful struggle, it's a race that we are all running and the finish line is success. Though some of us may scrape our knee during the race, fall down or whateverso. It does not matter, because the only thing that matters is that we pick ourselves up, dust ours shoulders and continue running. Do not envy those who have reached the finish line before you, for envy will get you nowhere. Instead, look up to those people and follow their good traits. Most people are afraid of doing so because they want to be "original". Newsflash, no one is original, we are bits and pieces of everybody. Whether we choose to pick the bad or good depends on oneself but I personally choose to pick out the positive ones.

“We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations.”

—

Anais Nin

ATL

Futurama.

The plan. Have you ever felt that you've got it all planned, what you want to do, where you're going to be, what are the things you want in life and then suddenly you just go blank? From having your life planned out to not knowing anything to wanting to do everything? I guess that's what all teenagers go through, eh?

I still remember when I was 7 years old and my teacher asked me what I wanted to be when I grow up, and I proudly stood up and said I wanted to be a farmer. Yes, a farmer. Looking back, it's no wonder why everyone laughed at me. But I didn't care, I still don't in fact. I find it very fascinating, you know? Milking the cows and such. Heck, I still WANT to milk a cow, and I will! And then, when I was 15, I wanted to be a pilot. I thought it was cool because my uncle, grandfather and cousin is a pilot. I worked hard to make sure I get good grades for PMR and get into the science stream but now that I'm in, I don't want to be a pilot anymore.

Many people has said to me that I'd make a good Lawyer. Well, why not? I get my facts right, I love to talk and I kinda like suspenders too! But, I don't know. I guess after all, I still haven't got it all planned out yet. Sometimes, I just get scared not knowing what I want to do when I finish my SPM. All I know is that I want to be successful, and by the way, everyone has their definition of successful and mine being, being happy in my own skin, providing for my family and indulging myself in luxurious things and growing spiritually and emotionally. Okay, I'm jumping out of topic, bottom line is, it's okay to not know what you want to do in the future. Just focus on the present, live in the moment and when the time comes, you will know what you want to do.

Sometimes, you think you want to do this but you what you actually love to do is that. Know? You don't just know what you want to do immediately, it takes time. We're young, we're supposed to gain as much experience as we can! So don't worry so much about the future and let life come to you. And to those wishing you were still a kid, don't. Because I'm pretty sure the only reason why we wish for that is because life is tough. I bet my bottom dollar that life was beautiful as a teen, you wouldn't want to be a kid again, eh? If we don't grow, we will never learn. Age is just a number, problems are just experiences in disguise that will only make you a wiser person, fail attempts are what makes as stronger as a person. To me, it's okay not being a kid anymore. Because I will always be my parents' little girl and a kid at heart. Never ever let your inner kid go because it's what makes our imagination wild.

“We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations.”

— Anais Nin

ATL

My new eye candy

Meet Andrew Garfield. You might have seen him in The Social Network and FYI, he's also going to play the role of Spiderman in 2012. He's the first male actor that I find really charming and also really sexy like OhmaLord!

Jaeson Ma - Love (feat. Bruno Mars)

Jaeson Ma - Glory ft. Caleb Lin

Food for thought

Here are some pretty awesome quotes I found..

“Nothing turns us into bitter, selfish, dis-satisfied people more quickly than an ungrateful heart”

—	Billy Graham

“I keep forgetting to put focus on my to-do list. I keep forgetting to wander and have fun. I know I’m transparent but my insecurities are in all the right places, so go ahead, have a look.”

Ghandi’s Autobiography-Buddy Wakefield

"Day-to-day people typically think about the things that are going wrong instead of what is going right. This is sadly the norm, but it’s behavior" -DJH

“It isn’t enough to sit on the sidelines and hope for things to get better. You’ve got to ask yourself, ‘What steps am I going to take to get the things in life I want?’ Achieving great goals takes planning, and your life is no different.”

—

Jane Powell

“Do not anticipate trouble or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight.” – Benjamin Franklin

Rules

Rule #1: Never screw over your friend.

Rule #2: If things seem under control, you aren’t going fast enough.

Rule #3: Don’t believe what you’re told. Double check.

Rule #4: The best way to keep a secret? Keep it to yourself.

Second best? There is no second best.

Rule #5: Don’t trust anyone and rely on your instinct.

Rule #6: Never apologize — Its a sign of weakness.

Rule #7: Always be specific when you lie.

Rule #8: Never take anything for granted.

Rule #10: Never get personally involved in people’s life

Rule #11: When the job is done, walk away.

Rule #12: Never date a someone who's in the same school as you.

Rule #13: If someone looks weird, he/she probably is.

Rule #14: The less you say about you, the less can be use against you

Rule #15: Always work as a team.

Rule #16: Never be unreachable.

Rule #17: The more things change, the more they stay the same.

Rule #18: It’s better to seek forgiveness than ask permission.

Rule #19: Once is happenstance. Twice is coincidence. Three times is enemy action.

Rule #20: They can’t hurt you unless you let them.

Rule #21: The truth is outside of all fixed patterns.

Rule #22: Choose your own legacy. It’s for you to decide.

Rule #23:To be legendary, you have to stop being ordinary.

Rule #24: Observe, listen and learn.

Rule #25: Violence is the last resort of the incompetent.

Rule #26: I’m invincible as long as I’m alive.

Rule #28: Try again, fail again. Fail better.

Rule #29: A sharp tongue can cut your own throat.

Rule #30: Building the future and keeping the past alive are one in the same thing.

Rule #31: One thing you can give and still keep.is your word.

Rule #32: You lie the loudest when you lie to yourself.

Rule #33: if things are going wrong : stop and restart

Rule #34: do not expect anything from anyone, and you will not be disappointed

Rule #38: Your idea, your lead.

Rule #39: There is no such thing as coincidence.

Rule #40: If it seems someone is out to get you, they are.

Rule #45: You left a mess, you‘ve got to clean up.

Rule #51: Sometimes — You’re Wrong!

Love.

Love, what is love? Is it that warm feeling you get when you know you've always got someone to lean on? Or is it the rush that passes through your entire body each time you get a glance of that significant person's face? Everyone has their definition of love. In my previous post I said that it takes a lot of courage to embrace this thing called "love" so that is why I salute those people who do. For some of you who don't know me, I am not really a big fan of love well excluding my parents of course. It's a scary thing to fall in love with someone. I came across this quote on tumblr that goes a little bit like this, "love overpowers the mind, possesses the heart and blinds the eyes." I couldn't agree more! When you're in love, everything is nice and dandy but it will not be that way forever because someday, somehow there will be a person who'll get bored of the other, someone will want to call it quits. Even the thought of "how long will this last?" scares the hell out of me because everyone knows that nothing lasts forever. Promises will not be fulfilled, hearts will be broken, words will always just be words, action will not take place and flaws will just be another reason to break up with that person. Honestly right now, that is my definition of love. Might sound a wee bit cold hearted but it's true. I'm not one to open up and tell everything to any Tom, Dick and Harry, I take my time, get to know that person but it'll still be hard for me to trust someone. Inevitably, life is a cycle. You break someone's heart, they'll go on breaking others. You hurt someone, they'll do the same to others. You break someone's trust and forever they'll have trust issues and that's not even the worst part yet but I'm getting to it now. The worst part is that when this so called "messed up" person meets an actual genuine person, he/she will put the burdon on him, make him/her go through all these unnecessary obstacles because the last person she/he was with has broken him/her in to his/her basic elements and I think it's a pity to these people who become a victime to their prey (which is the person who is often called the heart-breaker) but then again, that's life. You have to go through hard times to appreciate the good ones, no? But I have a solution to make everyone feel better when their heart gets broken. Take a deep breath and think about this, that useless person who lead you on and broke your heart will end up falling in love one day too and their heart will be ripped out of their chess due to karma and hopefully, they will learn their lesson because people, the worst thing you can do to someone is lead them on with no intention of being with them at all. I know I'm no saint but that's the most cruel thing to do. It's like taking a cat, putting it in front of a fish and tying him to a wall so it can't run and eat the fish, don't worry, I'm fully aware that I most probably don't make sense right now. But basically what I'm trying to say is this, if you see someone that you are sure you want to be with, go for it. Prove it. If you're just in it to lead them on and whisper sweet things in their ears with the sole intention to give your ego a boost or just to get in to their pants, then just leave. Because this is exactly how the cycle begins. It only takes a few seconds to distinguish your feelings for someone.

"Either you like me or you don't. Don't go in between and send mixed messages. My heart isn't set up for that game of decoding riddles." -Rouge Velvets

ATL